I Have Too Much to Say!
I have too much to say...
Thoughts swirling
in my head
about life
and the path of life
and the twists and turns
but I don't want to
write about it here.
Where does that
leave me?
My confusion
stifles my
ability to write.
Nothing else
sounds
real,
important,
authentic.
Instead
these thoughts
refuse to leave-
they strangle,
simmer,
and swirl-
Where can I go?
Where can I share
these wonderings?
Where I can untangle
this mess?
The pages,
the private
pages
of my
notebook...
Sometimes a blog is not the right place for me to write. Sometimes I need privacy to figure things out. That's how I've been feeling the past day or two. Today I started and stopped this blog post more times than I can count...until I realized what the problem really is. My writing is private today. It's for me. That's what the poem was trying to say.
March is the Slice of Life Challenge.
I'll be sharing a post each day in the month of March.
Please join me at Two Writing Teachers to read more slices!
I have had several days like this recently, Michelle. I need to write, because I need to sort through the tangles in my mind, but at the same time, I don't want to write for the world to see. And on those days, a private journal entry is much better. But then there is still that dang slice to write! You handled it really well with your poem.
ReplyDeleteYour post resonated with me because a few days ago, I had a similar experience. I had things to write about, but they were things that I was more comfortable keeping within the pages of my notebook. Your words here are so important for all of us in the SOL community because I'm sure other people have experienced the same feelings. Thank you for articulating this so well!
ReplyDeleteI, too, sometimes have the feeling that I just can't write, and then realize it's because something deeper and darker is begging to be written but not shared. In fact, that's definitely one of the things that was throwing up a roadblock for me tonight. (My post was also about not wanting to write, but I got myself out of it, as I see you did too!) I love the way you explored this feeling through your poem!
ReplyDeleteYes, Michelle. This is so well said! But bravo for you for still creating a masterpiece of a slice!
ReplyDeleteLove these words that describe so well how you're feeling:
ReplyDelete"...they strangle,
simmer,
and swirl-"
Kudos to you for being honest and writing about writing that you won't share beyond your notebook pages.
Yes, Michelle, sometimes our words do "strangle,simmer, and swirl". It is up to us to step back and reflect like you did it. I hope your words allowed you to be centered for the rest of the day.
ReplyDeleteI hope that writing helps to untangle thoughts and find some calm.
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